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BLOG33-A letter to the close people who left me


A letter to the people who left me


I often look in to your eyes and wonder 

If there is a lie that's buried deep under 

Every time we talk it's like a thunder

Our feelings aren't ok inside it's like a blunder

 

Every time we talk it's just a different weather

Admit it you never really treated me any better

Talking to a wall is honestly a lot better 

It is not a feather but better than a whatever 

 

Dying thinking about the time we spent together

With the same different girls with every time of the month 

Thinking about all the things that was said and done

Our love wasn't better and my blood overflows like the river

 

Everyday for us felt like we are locked inside of a Dome 

And when I talk to you it's like I'm dying inside of a hole

You ditched me while I was dying alone on my own

Why do you lie when we only conversate on the phone 

 

I can hear your voice cracking and your typing lacking 

Dancing with your heels while you are out of fashion

I want to love but I don't think I will heal 

I want to feel but I don't think that's the deal 

 

I never really thought loving you was that hard 

Been looking for a void and dying from the start 

I never really thought you would break me apart

You were like an invisible piece of art

 

Even a look in to your eyes was very hard 

You said a lie after another and it was off the chart 

How could you do this I told you I love you like a shining star

I wanted us to be together but we were drifting in the dark

 

How could you do this, I thought in the end we were going to be together

And love one another and be there for each other 

But you left and you created this void forever

I'm still sore and at night my demons come for my pleasure

 

I'm having trouble sleeping

I can't believe what happened had a stupid reason 

I can't believe you stabbed me on different seasons

I believed you and I still believed you, with your lies I ate them 

 

Fed me all your bullshit and ideas so misleading

Everything I had for you was nothing but love best believe them

I bled for you I wrote for you but you just sunk your teeth in to my feelings

 

I would look at my phone waiting for you to call 

Now my phone is dying and I'm all alone 

All the time I was denying my feelings

Until my heart started severely bleeding

 

You just stabbed me until I was Dead

Searching for tomorrow but all I saw was the end

A thousand times left me on red 

You were a broken record and I should have left 

 

Crying in my room like a baby do 

My feelings for you was absolutely true 

My veins were shouting Just for you 

But you left and I was cutting my self too 

 

What happened to forever?

It seems like your mind can't remember

Now I have a void and I'm still bitter 

What you did to me was for your own pleasure

 

So sore myself got devoured

My soul is screaming and I lost the power

I lost me & myself and I became so cold

I got sad and everything I did felt so wrong 

 

I hope to find the will to live 

I hope to find the power to give 

I hope to be able to forgive

I hope I will be able to forget

 

Everything I did wasn't what I expected

I felt soulless and your memory I regret it

You were my sunshine but I will neglect it

Everything I said was put to rest and the pain was intensive

 

I invested my mind and my time in you

I told you one thousand times that my love was true 

And I was acting like a fool just for you too

I ignored my heart and my mind just to love you

 

I told you I am in the dark and you ignored me 

I have showed you my emotional scars on me

I was honest with my feelings but you didn't hold me 

You left me alone crying and my soul you robbed me


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