BLOG39-Inner conflicts

Inner conflicts

I know that feeling when I get the night flow

It's like the right demons’ crawls and show

Inside my mind, my thoughts make me small

All my worries and fears, they start to brawl

Late at night, my mind starts to race

The right spirit sneaks, and takes its place

Inside my head, I face my thoughts

My worries and fears, they stand so tall

And I can't help but wonder, is this all?

Is there more to life than this constant war?

I try to hold onto my beliefs, but they start to fall

And I'm left feeling like I'm not worth it at all

I go to war with my peace and it's a battle I can't cease

My own worst enemy is me against me that I can’t see

Sometimes I feel like I'm drowning in the sea

And I am collapsing from the inside with nowhere to flee

the only way out is to pour a drink, but that's more deceit

I'm defeated, feeling like I'm just a piece of meat

I drink till I am dead then there is nothing to see?

Is this all I'm destined to be, just a statistic in the street?

I feel like there is a weight on my shoulders

I lost sight and it's hard to keep my composure

Can't escape the doubts that smoulder

My worries make me feel uncertain and older

I try to fight them, but they won't let go

Their grip on me is strong, and I feel so low

The weight of the world, it's crushing me down

I'm suffocating in my own doubts and frowns

But then I remember, that I'm not alone

That others have felt this way and have grown

From struggle and pain, they've found their light

And I can do the same, I can win this fight

So I take a deep breath, and let it out slow

I focus on the present, and let the worries go

I feel my strength, my power, my might

And suddenly, the demon is out of sight

I'm not saying it's easy, to overcome our fears

But when we face them head on, our true self appears

We find our voice, our purpose, our call

Our monologue changes until there is no worries at all

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