BLOG35-Dear GOD part.1

Dear GOD part.1

Dear god I don’t know if you can read this

Hear me out because I am speechless

Listen to my thoughts if you see this

I talk to you like this cause I need bliss

When I go to sleep it is between you and me

Voices creeps and are coming to see me

My deep mind is like a show without a clue

I pray all the time but there is nothing to do

At night I ponder on many ideas

Sometimes bright and atheists

My head is like a museum

With people and future sapiens

I love everyone but a friend to none

I want her with me to be as one

I pray to you that I meet her

Please listen cause I need her

Now I am just like a walking body

I have been dying to find somebody

Praying for a love buddy

Waiting for her like a dummy

In my room siting with no sleep

They said I’m desist & all I do is eat

I feel weak so I don’t even speak

I am here but my mind isn’t near

I can’t find a job so I am done

I don’t know I am not even someone

Living and breathing like a stun

Heaving and moving on none

I try to keep my head up in the clouds

This place is becoming like a hub and it’s loud

Dark thoughts spreading like led

Even you can see my request

Even Santa is in doubt of answering

So many situations are entanglement

Now my angels wasn’t chanting around

It feels like I am talking with a drought

I am afraid of blinking and sometimes I detest

Help me cause I am clinging but I know I am blessed

I’m glad I’m living and for better I am wishing for this test

I want her and I need to earn a living and for her to lay on my chest

Dear god, there is more to come

I need to vent to you and people are dumb

I thought we are all one and for someone

I never realized there is none

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