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Thinking 

Lately I’ve been going to the bars alone texting on my phone
Lately I’ve been away and far from home going throw my texts
All I want to do is drink myself and then sleep past ten
You're the only one I want to see and I don’t want to be your ex

I’ve been looking for another timeline so I could shine
But I am only drinking till I can’t see the light
Girl you knew you were my sight but you were just a fake
I am just needy with time, but you needed your own space

So you tore me up and you didn’t leave a trace
And I know I feel the regret when I see your face
And you want me but you are on to the next race
You left me bleeding and the case was never erased 

I always took you for a wife and my life was better
But you never felt that way that’s why the ties were severed
They say relationships sink in the harbor or whatever
But what about the wine we drank together like a river

I'm left with only letters and a big pressure
You left me a gesture under the cloudy weather
I feel the blues and you hit me with your own thunder
You left me and I am always in the cold slumber

We dated for weeks, months, and years
But you can see my peak and I'm weak living in fear
We experienced uncertainty and every time you started blaming me
Like this relationship is hard and it’s unfaithfully scaring me

We were together and I was full of insecurity
Feelings runs deep but you always hated me
Always drinking till I see some clarity but you left me blatantly
So much pain I wished I were living in solidarity

Having the blues about the breakup feeling low
Smiling with a frown but I'm still going with the flow 
But I close my eyes and I can see you somehow
I cry about a day and later I shut down without a doubt

I wish you the best but you severed my soul like the rest
We left on a sour note and my life is becoming a big miss
I always thought that we could build a nest together
And when you lied you always got stressed with the shivers

After the breakup I lost my sense of self I was overwhelmed
Emotions runs deep and I wish I was with someone else
Sleeping till the next day cause I was overloaded
Looking for my peace of mind and I can feel completely broken

Looking for some hope in this place and I am hardly potent
My mind felt like it was infested with so many rodents
And I guess I was septic from your twisted lotion
You were the apple of my heart and I gave you all of my devotion

I was back to basics talking to myself like a mental patient
Don’t blame me you were the one misbehaving
What happened to us being together living till we are ancient
Without you I’m vacant and you are no more an angel

I spoke to my family about us being together
And how we promised to stay with each other forever
And how you never treated me any better
I tried my best but you ended up leaving me bitter

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  1. Unknown4 August 2019 at 14:19

    Beautiful Magic Haz.... So sorry this happened hunny.. Even if is normal, usual, things happen and all that.. knowing and appreciating you I am really sorry.
    Big Hug S. 379

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  2. Hazzoom14 December 2020 at 00:35

    big big hug to you my dear friend

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