BLOG24-No connection

No connection

Lately I've been feeling alone
I always do it on my own
nothing compares to the heart of stones
Still living like I am going to explode
Feels like my emotions is out of a show
They say hello and goodbye it feels like a saw
But I know that I have been here before

I am empty, dead and I am about to fold
They’re full of envy for the person that I chose
My head will explode from the void of my falls, and they left
sometimes I think do I need to let go to find the next
I'm writing telling you my perception, and the path that I chose
talking to god telling me spill your soul your story haven’t been told
I recently went to the booth of confession to know my intention
That I’m trying to show
No love it’s been hard and I am stuck on the path ages ago
I keep my head up but I am still very sore
Tired of felling alone with no home while I am stuck on the low
It feels like I am missing my own
why are people manipulative and they leave my attention,

and then my heart is caught in the tension
when I get anxious I kill myself by having these emotional questions
I feel like people just want to play
I felt the damage and I still have many aggressions to say
I never realized I am numb closing shut from this lesson
I cry alone and I feel the hurt living with no connection
I just wanna be done, nothing is fun
I love myself but I just wanna run
I feel tired alone I need a hug
I wanted a future for us but you left in a rush
A mind of a winner but I just wanna cop
I don't wanna write and my pain it shows
The air is tight on my throat but they don’t even know
I feel like leaving and sailing on a boat
I am trying to be optimistic but I can’t let go
I was born like this, just read what I wrote
I'm searching for a bless in the humans that I know
I lost myself in my feelings and my written notes
I lost myself while feeling empty, dead and cold, damn

Inspired by a song and real life events

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