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Bleeding 



Dear ex love

Looking at hell and got something on my mind
Everyday I say this I know
The letters that I wrote with the words I couldn’t find
I screamed until it was hard to see 

We had the best days, now I just sit here to bleed 
Now everything is killing me while I am closing shut
Venting without pretending and my soul is full of dust
Living in my room stuck between with no luck
the smell of you hunts me and my life isn’t just
The rhythm of your heart is what I was trying to flow
Living responsible leaving was never an optional show
Open minded but you left me hallow and wounded 

Left me with no ammunition and dreaming lucid
You took the bullets out I should’ve seen that you were ruthless

Siting writing like I am foolish with the hurt included
Telling me that you love me with your words excluded
My mind rejecting your story and I am folded
You told me forever but now you are for me useless 

Took me a while to notice but my mind I should’ve used it
But I guess my love was blind and I lost me
I was out of my mind and I lost sleep to devils I could see
I hope my love can float someday and I can be me
The devils are rooting for me now so I let them be
I have faith in the better but my hart you severed
I would fly and leave and be gone like the river
I will never be and you can remember… me


Drinking just to feel better lost reading my entire love letters
Looking for a shelter falling bitter family just putting pressure
you just wanted the same relationship you had with your father
Light like a feather and he left you under the lava
You told me I was the treasure that you were looking for
You were looking for the sweetest pepper and more
Before I saw all your episodes I wasn’t your greatest fan

Our love wasn’t like a Stan and I wont call you trash
Remember in the night we use to fight together with a rose
You’d say that you were in love with me but only god knows
Your last disposed you before you turned cold
And left you crying and dumped you on the sidewalk 


I am just getting a call back and it’s funny
Saying I never thought I could do this to you honey



I never thought people could be painkillers with prescription
They will miss you up and leave you with an infection
Like an abduction have been hurting me by my own assumption
I wish my addiction could mean something but it was nothing
I picked the pen to write till the night about my intention
Writing about my tensions until I am out of days 

But I would like to say happy valentine’s day
And to build a flying boat out of these hopeless roles we play

Inspired by a song and real life events  

©




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