Farewell   I'll take all my secrets with me and I will leave my soul behind A testament of my life, as a man who was once alive And though my time may be up, and my journey may be done I'll live on in their memories, as the man who was just one.   If I should depart, this is my last farewell To be reborn again but not in a cell To laugh with the happy times, to cry with the tears To revisit the moments, that shaped all my years   I've been living life on the edge, taking risks and passing tests After I say my goodbyes, nothing will be left After I leave and go, what will they dream of me? That I am a second to none or I was living hopelessly?     I've made mistakes along the way, done things I'm not proud of But I'll take them to my grave, buried deep beneath my face When they speak of me, will it be with reverence or disdain? Will they see me as a hero or a villain or maybe just insane?   why we fig...

  Inner conflicts   I know that feeling when I get the night flow It's like the right demons’ crawls and show Inside my mind, my thoughts make me small All my worries and fears, they start to brawl   Late at night, my mind starts to race The right spirit sneaks, and takes its place Inside my head, I face my thoughts My worries and fears, they stand so tall   And I can't help but wonder, is this all? Is there more to life than this constant war? I try to hold onto my beliefs, but they start to fall And I'm left feeling like I'm not worth it at all   I go to war with my peace and it's a battle I can't cease My own worst enemy is me against me that I can’t see Sometimes I feel like I'm drowning in the sea And I am collapsing from the inside with nowhere to flee   the only way out is to pour a drink, but that's more deceit I'm defeated, feeling like I'm just a piece of meat I drink till I am dead then the...

  Feelings  The world is like a storm that's brewing up a fight With chaos and confusion, it's hard to see what's right I'm searching for a meaning, trying to find my place But the fear of failure haunts me, it's hard to keep the pace   I do my best with my canvas, painted in shades of Gray With my pen a paper and my words I can't convey I try to speak, but I prefer not to say my voice is sore and swallowed by the day   I hold my breath and take a leap, hoping for the best But the weight of uncertainty is like a constant test I keep pushing through the darkness, trying to find my way But the path is rough and jagged, it consumes me like a play   Locked in my room alone feeling all this gloom With my cat on my lap while writing to be in tune   Can't escape the thoughts that keep me consumed My mind is racing, I'm feeling so confused   Drowning in uncertainty, can't find a clue My family's worried, they don...

  Dear GOD part.2 Surrendering myself while I am screaming Fading away and my curse is revealing     Reliving my uncertainty in my feelings Dying from the inside and squealing     Struggling to shake off this distrust and the hurt But it feels like my past will always be like dirt Judgmental people, my vision is misty Their harsh criticism, my confidence is shifty   Sometimes I wish I could just run away and hide I know I must face my fears, stay by my own side This dilemma is mine alone to bear And I won't let anyone else define or declare   Dear god, I'm pouring out my heart and soul I'm feeling lost and broken, please make me whole My mind is racing, my thoughts out of control I need your guidance to help me reach my goal   I'll keep pushing through, keep fighting the fight Not giving up, not surrendering to the night Because revealing my true self is worth the pain And in the end of the rain, nothing w...