BLOG37-dear GOD part.2

Dear GOD part.2

Surrendering myself while I am screaming

Fading away and my curse is revealing

Reliving my uncertainty in my feelings

Dying from the inside and squealing

Struggling to shake off this distrust and the hurt

But it feels like my past will always be like dirt

Judgmental people, my vision is misty

Their harsh criticism, my confidence is shifty

Sometimes I wish I could just run away and hide

I know I must face my fears, stay by my own side

This dilemma is mine alone to bear

And I won't let anyone else define or declare

Dear god, I'm pouring out my heart and soul

I'm feeling lost and broken, please make me whole

My mind is racing, my thoughts out of control

I need your guidance to help me reach my goal

I'll keep pushing through, keep fighting the fight

Not giving up, not surrendering to the night

Because revealing my true self is worth the pain

And in the end of the rain, nothing will be in vain.

I know I've made mistakes and I'm far from perfect

But I'm trying my best to stay strong and assertive

Life is tough and sometimes it's hard to be positive

But with your love and grace, I can be confident

I'm praying for a sign to show me the way

To help me through the struggles I face every day

I feel like I'm drowning and I don't know what to say

But I know that with you, I can find my way

Please give me the strength to keep pushing forward

To chase my dreams and to never feel cornered

I know that with you, my prayers will be answered

And I'll find the peace and love that I've been pondered

I hold it all in, keep it hidden in the dark

Afraid to show the world the wounds that have left their mark

But if I don't face my demons and let the truth be told

I'll forever be trapped in a story left untold

When the storm clouds gather and the lightning strikes

I'll fight to stay alive and not be paralyzed

I'll embrace the pain and let it wash over me

And find the strength to break free from my captivity

Dear god, thank you for listening to my plea

I'm putting my faith in you, please help me see

That even in the darkest times, there's still a way to be

And with your love, I will be free how I am supposed to be

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