BLOG19- Silence

Silence

I saw you as guidance to me 

I thought you would ride with me 

I thought I knew who I am suppose to be 

You really meant everything to me

I know things made us upset 

We yell and fight and each other we neglect 

After the time that was invested 

Now I am just living unprotected 

Feeling perplexed about you 

Missing you feeling shattered from you 

I knew I would feel intense pain

I did what I did just to see if I am still sane 

Telling myself not to feel any regret 

I'm lying and living in distress 

Cause I'm in my room depressed 

With the paper writing to forget 

Now I love the pain

And my heart got broken again 

my emotions are the only one to blame 

And I felt lonely with your flames 

I am on the bench sitting and crying 

writing by myself in silence 

Remembering the stories on the island 

Staring at the night sky so silent 

I really loved you and I was full of hope 

But now I don’t know how to cope 

And I'm still searching for that rope 

If I speak I know that I'm going to choke 

Buried with my emotions and the things I lost 

I know I wont find happiness with the things I bought 

I said please don’t leave me 

But you left and the thought of you eats me 

Hold my hand and take every part of me 

You held my soul and took what belongs to me 

I would look at you and you would be a song to me 

I can’t tell you the severity of what you did to me 

I thought we would be fine 

You said you have my back but you weren’t mine 

Now you are gone and I don’t have a spine 

I'm off track and your memory is a lie 

Remember when you held my hand 

You said you love me like wine? 

I was blind and there were plenty of signs 

I just can’t believe I trusted your lies 

Now I am just getting by when I drink 

And I go to a shrink and complain why do I sink 

I said cupid don’t give a crap about me 

I think his arrows missed me and left me empty 

I'm regretful and never going to mend 

I'm sorry for the letters I did not send 

Now I depend on a medicine like a true friend 

I write for the peace of my mind like a trend 

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