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Silence

I saw you as guidance to me 
I thought you would ride with me 
I thought I knew who I am suppose to be 
You really meant everything to me

I know things made us upset 
We yell and fight and each other we neglect 
After the time that was invested 
Now I am just living unprotected 

Feeling perplexed about you 
Missing you feeling shattered from you 
I knew I would feel intense pain
I did what I did just to see if I am still sane 

Telling myself not to feel any regret 
I'm lying and living in distress 
Cause I'm in my room depressed 
With the paper writing to forget 

Now I love the pain
And my heart got broken again 
my emotions are the only one to blame 
And I felt lonely with your flames 

I am on the bench sitting and crying 
writing by myself in silence 
Remembering the stories on the island 
Staring at the night sky so silent 

I really loved you and I was full of hope 
But now I don’t know how to cope 
And I'm still searching for that rope 
If I speak I know that I'm going to choke 

Buried with my emotions and the things I lost 
I know I wont find happiness with the things I bought 
I said please don’t leave me 
But you left and the thought of you eats me 

Hold my hand and take every part of me 
You held my soul and took what belongs to me 
I would look at you and you would be a song to me 
I can’t tell you the severity of what you did to me 

I thought we would be fine 
You said you have my back but you weren’t mine 
Now you are gone and I don’t have a spine 
I'm off track and your memory is a lie 

Remember when you held my hand 
You said you love me like wine? 
I was blind and there were plenty of signs 
I just can’t believe I trusted your lies 

Now I am just getting by when I drink 
And I go to a shrink and complain why do I sink 
I said cupid don’t give a crap about me 
I think his arrows missed me and left me empty 

I'm regretful and never going to mend 
I'm sorry for the letters I did not send 
Now I depend on a medicine like a true friend 
I write for the peace of my mind like a trend 


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