BLOG21-I was happy

I was happy

I told you I was happy in those times when I saw you

When I talk to you I drew us together and didn’t ignore you

Turns out you are just faking your affection all together

Next day conversations talking about love or whatever

Every time you left me on seen I had tears in my eyes

I started crying and I thought I couldn't survive

My heart was pounding when you were typing on the screen

I kept ignoring you but my heart kept smiling like a teen

I know it's been a long time since we spoke and had wine I miss you

I had hope and a peace of mind, and I want to kiss you

When I close my eyes I see you in my dreams intertwine

You said our love was forever but you left me feeling blind

In my room trying to write a couple of lines that rhymes

Trying to gather my thoughts and the things I left behind

Trying to digest the words in my mind and all the lies

Figuring out what's mine in this miss & why I don't shine

Talking to god through my phone and calling the Divine

Saying I lost my vision and I need a sign to feel alive

Reply to me they all left me behind outside with no light

Is this how it suppose to be to live with out an insight?

On my chair thinking why is no one there in my sight

On my knees asking but it's heavy on my throat at night

Dreaming about how much things are righteous like this

How am I so lifeless and feeling so worthless about this

For you I would do anything so we can get throw

You left me like I was nothing and dumped me like a fool

In this life I thought it's going to be us two surviving

But you just left me stranded on the island hiding

Now I can't handle love so I sit in silence and hide it

Some days I search for my soul but I still can't find it

I search for myself but I still struggle to like it

I even can't handle life so I sit and write about it

I take meds to numb my pain something like Novocain

I cry alone so I do it under the rain and go home

The skies are blue, the clouds are pure but I'm still missing you

Everything feels grey in my life and it is not a few

You tore me apart when you left and you know that is true

You left me feeling blue in the dark tell me what to do

Under the moonlight we kissed and we will be together like glue

Now what happened to us wasn't entirely that true

That night I called you and you never answered

I even sent you a Whatsapp but I guess I didn't matter

I left you a voice note but you weren't into the chatter

Why did you leave? I wish I knew you were a back stabber

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BLOG40-goodbye

Farewell I'll take all my secrets with me and I will leave my soul behind A testament of my life, as a man who was once alive And though my time may be up, and my journey may be done I'll live on in their memories, as the man who was just one. If I should depart, this is my last farewell To be reborn again but not in a cell To laugh with the happy times, to cry with the tears To revisit the moments, that shaped all my years I've been living life on the edge, taking risks and passing tests After I say my goodbyes, nothing will be left After I leave and go, what will they dream of me? That I am a second to none or I was living hopelessly? I've made mistakes along the way, done things I'm not proud of But I'll take them to my grave, buried deep beneath my face When they speak of me, will it be with reverence or disdain? Will they see me as a hero or a villain or maybe just insane? why we fig...

BLOG-45 HOPE

HOPE Dear hope, our love was once alive Every moment with you made my heart thrive From the streets to your place, we strolled Fireworks & music it is a story to be told Hand in hand, time stood still Kisses and love, a magical thrill I cherished every moment, every beat Dreaming of you, making my life complete But our definitions of love did not align I sought a life partner, you wanted to dine On financial stability, a different kind of affection Leaving me with questions and in different directions I apologize for the hurtful words I said They were misplaced, causing tears to shed I dreamt of marriage, after seven months that was true But circumstances intervened and it couldn't come through I'm sorry for the times I neglected your needs Leaving you feeling alone, lost like a seed Family comes first, my unwavering creed But I wish you happiness and I hope you succeed I wanted to be a cha...

BLOG18- THE END

The End There is something inside my chest beating There is fire inside my soul and it’s bleeding This is how I grieve and express my feelings Feeling the blues since and I am still screaming Been on the edge feeling cold and freezing Been loved but they deserted me and said I'm needy I am trying to love but I am heaving with the crowd The voices in my head are loud telling me to change my route I am just writing my thoughts on this paper I'm still coping with my loss until the day later I'm still crying, drinking shots waiting for the reaper I can see my anger vaporizing my awful behaviour Trying to find the option but I am stuck in this mess My love they left and I am still awfully depressed Then they ask me why do you detest like the rest Just be happy that you are here living to exist I'm still lost and stuck in the mist I am still drifting but I would like to be kis...

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