BLOG21-I was happy

I was happy

I told you I was happy in those times when I saw you

When I talk to you I drew us together and didn’t ignore you

Turns out you are just faking your affection all together

Next day conversations talking about love or whatever

Every time you left me on seen I had tears in my eyes

I started crying and I thought I couldn't survive

My heart was pounding when you were typing on the screen

I kept ignoring you but my heart kept smiling like a teen

I know it's been a long time since we spoke and had wine I miss you

I had hope and a peace of mind, and I want to kiss you

When I close my eyes I see you in my dreams intertwine

You said our love was forever but you left me feeling blind

In my room trying to write a couple of lines that rhymes

Trying to gather my thoughts and the things I left behind

Trying to digest the words in my mind and all the lies

Figuring out what's mine in this miss & why I don't shine

Talking to god through my phone and calling the Divine

Saying I lost my vision and I need a sign to feel alive

Reply to me they all left me behind outside with no light

Is this how it suppose to be to live with out an insight?

On my chair thinking why is no one there in my sight

On my knees asking but it's heavy on my throat at night

Dreaming about how much things are righteous like this

How am I so lifeless and feeling so worthless about this

For you I would do anything so we can get throw

You left me like I was nothing and dumped me like a fool

In this life I thought it's going to be us two surviving

But you just left me stranded on the island hiding

Now I can't handle love so I sit in silence and hide it

Some days I search for my soul but I still can't find it

I search for myself but I still struggle to like it

I even can't handle life so I sit and write about it

I take meds to numb my pain something like Novocain

I cry alone so I do it under the rain and go home

The skies are blue, the clouds are pure but I'm still missing you

Everything feels grey in my life and it is not a few

You tore me apart when you left and you know that is true

You left me feeling blue in the dark tell me what to do

Under the moonlight we kissed and we will be together like glue

Now what happened to us wasn't entirely that true

That night I called you and you never answered

I even sent you a Whatsapp but I guess I didn't matter

I left you a voice note but you weren't into the chatter

Why did you leave? I wish I knew you were a back stabber

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