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Therapist

I walked in to the office to see and greet my therapist

I touch the bridge of my nose and spoke about the evidence   

We sat down and spoke like two residents

She told me i am your therapist what can I do for you

I said I want a 3 hours therapy session out of the blue  

She went to her notebook to write something

And I looked at her blond hair so stunning and my cheeks started blushing 

She wanted to prescribe some meds and nothing else

I told her, hear me out; I am not like everyone else 

I started talking like I was silent for years

Telling her about my fears and when my demons appear  

Telling her I am a mess, and I failed the test so I don’t know what’s left 

Saying I am confused and all the time I get the regrets 

I forgot to say my name so it’s nice to meet you 

She said Grace is my name; it is nice to treat you

I need someone to talk to, that’s why I came to see you

I said maybe I would find a loyal friend in you  

She wants to cut to the chase with no time to waste 

She nodded and she started to ask me for my age 

I said I could spend the time with you until the very end 

She said I have only 3 hours and I have something else to amend

I told her my heart is sore and I can’t pretend 

Nothing can fix me not even your meds

She said please pay attention so let's talk like friends 

I said I have been living lonely and I have to vent 

My life is full of loveless emptiness

I can taste my bitterness and I have no nest 

I don’t know what’s wrong with my loneliness

Walking home and I am not full of happiness 

I said I honestly think you are beautiful and rare 

But beautiful things cut me and I am left with a tear   

They stare and I bleed so much until no one is there 

I suffer from my despair and vanish into thin air

I lay my head on her office bed and started to confess  

I tell her what’s wrong and the time I have spent 

And the arguments that left me tired with no rest

Looking at my phone checking the app for some text  

There are so many letters I wrote but never hit send 

And I haven’t felt any better as I am wearing my black sweater 

Writing on paper until the day ends and my soul transcends

Never in my life I have met someone who leaves like the wend

Smoke would fill my room until my mind was vacant

Writing discreetly in my basement till I fill up my empty pages 

But drinking every night and it felt like life I could face it 

And in the next morning I wake up impatient and full of rages  

They never called me back cause they don’t care about me 

They never love me for the fact that I was kind and very lonely  

They always consider me the ugly and that’s a fact about me

It is like they put me in the grave and cry false tears over me

I am lost but I love your blue eyes and your smile too 

She told me I’m your therapist so stop flirting with me for a few 

I told her I would love you like a kid who loves his dog too  

And hold your hand and you can help me see through my fog, pretty you 

I won’t hurt you and I will care about you 

I will love you everyday but die without you 

Touch your hair and cry without you

Feed you affection and go shopping with you

Wake up in the morning and say good morning to you 

Sleep with you and say good night to you boo 

Go to places with a beautiful view like you 

Hug each other and whisper in your ear, I love you for you 

Siting in the back sleeping like a cat while she is talking and I nap

Walking through the path of the rain talking to myself cause I am insane   

Everything I have is a blissing but my thoughts are like a knife 

I am just trying to stay awake but her voice is a soothing sight 

Her face shines on my face full of light hitting me so bright 

Trying to focus on the words but my mind is bluer seeing a white light 

I haven’t felt like this for a long time turning my face red 

Her cheeks felt soft while blushing like a kid with the things she said 

Listing to my words like no one did for a very long time

So I say this is my name and I love your eyes and your amazing smile  

I have been crazy for days and I am hoping to find the cure in your eyes 

I have been crying, I look ugly doing it while sitting at the bay

You had me by hey but I stray away, and want to jump out of this place            

Made a decision to lay my fate in the divine 

But my fate been dying slowly and everything is not fine

I feel empty, my mind is hollow, and I feel the void of space 

The gray skies seems sunny but I can’t save what’s left in this place 

My blue ink is fading and I can’t run free  

My time was wasted as a kid and I feel lost at sea

I want to open my eyes and feel you are with me  

   

Sitting in the back while my therapist is taking notes nodding at me

As I am talking laying on the bed she said, “Let me prescribe you some meds”

I was angry I was crying as I was talking feeling red 

She said let me flip the page and on to the next

She got, blue eyes, blue skirt, red cheeks, just like the girl in my dreams 

Then I remember screens surround me and there lights are very extreme

I felt discomfort, I felt weak, tired and wanted to sleep 

I was dying to speak and jumping out of my seat   

Be up there in the mighty heavens and I can sing for 24/7 

Until the clock hits eleven I will still confess to my reverend

I hope my dreams come true and to god I am a fool

And on her chair I was crying for you and having dreams about you 

My 3 hours was finished and she didn’t care about my image

I told her; it was my privilege to be with you in this clinic

She told me speak to my secretary because we are finished

She said it was nice meeting you, and i will see about your scrimmage            

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