BLOG8- Late Night Ride

Late night ride

Riding in the back of the taxi late at night writing on my phone 

Too many mixed feelings in my rack till I arrive to my next zone 

Emotions are a one-way track I knew you never felt the same 

It’s like we are the same person but never in the same game

Going from one stop to another killing time like no other 

Just waiting for the night to shift but I stutter with numbers  

Writing my thoughts on paper with my head under the clouds 

Looking at my reflection and I have lost my mind for a while 

Sitting alone in a blue chair just like my mood is gone 

Feeling the blues and the frustration while everything is wrong 

Yawn in the middle of the day while feeling irritated and torn 

I don’t know what to do when you left me all alone  

Jotting down some thoughts on my empty notes 

Telling you my story about my broken hopes 

And how a night ride turned in to a session on my phone

Writing all day and still awake till the break of dawn     

Riding late in the taxi thinking about my feelings 

How fate showed me things when I was lonely bleeding 

I was in love; writing like a kid and people didn’t know me

Screw my emotions, a teen left with no reasons by the phonies

Looking back at my life when I loved you dearly 

You saw the letters are coming signed by me sincerely

You cut me in my chest and I am dying from the inside severely

Tell me this; did you really love me when you didn't feel me? 

Like how could I forget what happened sometimes 

Everything is written on this paper and I can’t say that I am fine 

How can I forget a part of my life while I tune in to the next page  

The stories often were told late and thrown in the bin from my outrage 

Sitting in this chair while having mixed feelings about this eternity 

I knew from the beginning that you weren’t even there holding me 

You and I left like a storm with no clarity and you lost me  

All I see is a flare in the air like the one we had, but now I lost my certainty 

Searching for happiness in love when you know it is just lust 

I gave you all of my trust and you saw nothing but gray dust 

I wonder if my love for you was ever supporting enough 

Just know that in time you will have a lot of crappiness loves      

I sit behind looking at this window with tears in my eyes 

Like am I going to be all right while life is passing me by

Listing to my voice and watching the crack in the skies  

I don’t know if the universe is the answer or am I feeling awfully blind

Wake up in the morning like, is this life all I could do 

I need a better noon in my life so I know what to do

Please no routine with a show and a big tooth  

Every time I sleep my dreams becomes harder to chew  

I can’t sleep and nothing but nightmares I see

Like what am I suppose to do, there is nothing for me

Like is this degree worth it and what will I be 

Now I am left with nothing and I wish I could just flee  

Sorry if I have no manners I just sit down and blabber 

About different topics then I become sadder

Writing on my pad till I flip to the next paper   

My blue ink is my friend and it’s like goodnight I’ll see you later

I spilled my heart for you do you even care

All I ever did was giving you my life and at me you stare 

I know you wont even know that I am not even there 

While I am looking away and you are not even aware   

I fall in and out of love daily like hitting a wall with my memories fading

Writing on bricks chasing chicks but I am sick from this lately   

But I am still writing in this taxi while I'm going home 

Riding in the back seat and everything is out of control

In my writings I’ve lost myself completely 

Can’t decide about my love or if you need me deeply 

Sitting on this chair and my writings are about you leaving me 

Just admit it that you never needed me but I was needy  

Damn these feelings that got congested in me in time

If you ever hear my voice just know the starts will shine 

Everyday having the same trip and I am lost for a while

And I am looking for some words to write and lines to rhyme

I scream and I shout so I could change my route 

One second everything is fine then my heart is falling out 

I am tired of missing people who always break my soul in me 

Walking on me like I am living comfortable taking an arrow to the knee 

These voices and those demons in my head are home 

Waiting for me to come back and be all-alone

Scrolling through instagram until my mind is gone 

Writing on my phone like a late night ride and then I fell torn 

The skies are red like the bullets that entered my head 

Left me on the ground twitching with the pain that I will see ahead 

Waking up again with the thoughts inside degrading in time 

Sorry that I hate you but cupid hunts me and I hate sleeping on my bed 

Remember that night under the bridge were we kissed under the rain 

That was so romantic but I fell in the ditch and got introduced to my pain 

Going to the mail was magic and you are such an evil witch then I went insane 

You honestly did not care about my membrane or if I got hit by a train

They say time can heal and then I will feel better 

Time is not the problem it is just that life isn’t all glitter 

Talking about my sad stories until my next chapter

Taking my feelings out and I'm suppose to be an actor

I am sorry if I hurt you like a slater  

Goodnight and I will see you later 

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