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City

So maybe we were meant to be together forever 
When I sent you those letters and wrote you words like the river
I said I have faith but you chose to leave and my heart you sever
I don’t know if you wanted me but you left me under the weather

I never wanted to see myself on my own alone
I always wanted you and I to go home
Sometimes I dwell inside my stone dome
Cause all you did was hurting me and I feel sore

 Call me a dreamer but you are my favorite girl to meet
I was the love seeker and you were my heart beat
I wish you live down the street but to see you I need to take a seat
And then maybe you'll remember me like your midnight bed sheets

 I can’t believe I believed you and I can’t say that I need you 
You just used me and now I am leaving you
I am writing for whoever wants to hear what’s in my brain
It is hard to put down my thoughts inside the drain

I honestly feel burnt-out and I just want to disappear
somehow when I close my eyes I can see you very clear
I was never in your plans that is why I always lived in fear
I swear my love for you was very real but you caused me tears 

They say you would never be alone again living in despair
I don't think you know what is like to find someone rare
They tell me you could be loved by someone fair
I don't want the lies of someone who is not even there

I remember I felt in love with you in the big city
And I remember seeing you really pretty
I wanted to have a wedding like the ones in Disney
and our preacher could be mickey, I know I am silly

But what I need is my honey but you left and it’s not sunny
I wanted to marry you and forever so we could be summery
but dummy me should have kept my heart to me
And I got love for the big city and I never wanted you to leave me

Remember we used to take pictures under the buildings
And you use to say you love me and you were never pretending
I just did not think the ending was near and now I am just venting
We kissed under the bridge while we were blending

I wish I had ethanol like the greats and write words that is all fake
I wish I had a beautiful voice and a bunch of girls to chase
I wish I had the city screaming my name and gold on my gates
But all I am left with is a big void of ugly space

You know what killed me, expectations did
Expecting you to love me like I did
The idea of a wedding was tempting after everything you have said
But expectations killed me after I cried and I detest

I fear that I will have heartbreaks from cocktails
And maybe they will cry when my pulse breaks and fails
We fell in love in the big city on the ship that sails
But our love was like a train and it got derailed

I am scared of living through heaven
Oh god talk to me and tell me I am not in depression
I am not scared of living I am just scared of inception
I feel that I am in a life prison sentence

Dear judge we fell in love under the city lights
And we kissed under the moon when it was very bright
We jumped in the pool when it was dark at night
In those moments I felt alive and everything was right

We used to kiss under the buildings that was so high
We use to play on the mountains under the blue skies
We use to swim in the ocean tides
And I use to believe all her stupid lies

Oh well at lest your memories still lingers with me till this day
I don’t know when I will say goodbye and stay away
I still remember your smile when you had nothing to say
I will still remember your smell even to this day

It is hard to say goodbye but I die everyday…

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