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Night Sky 


Hey man how was sleep and your day last night
I don’t know, Lately I have been stuck deep inside the daylight
Even you see that I am not fine and everything is not right
Nightmares seems to drag me up on a new height

I’m living in my mind signed to this life and all it’s lies          
Designed to be my own remedy bind to what’s in my sight
Dreaming of flaying but there is a knife and I'm trying to hide
I am not enjoying my ride, and there is no light to find  

Looking at the night sky while the stars are shining so bright 
Feeling lonely under the quite sight thinking about my life 
How they back stabbed me with the pain still inside 
I lack asleep from the people who tore me and left me behind      

Yes it is 3AM writing on my phone while listening to sad songs
Don’t know what to do and my sleep I lose it till it’s all gone  
Thinking about the past and my relationships that didn’t last
There is a void inside of my head and it feels like I am an outcast  

I can’t sleep and I can’t think yet everything is black like my ink 
I drink till I blackout and shout till I sink 
Like the ship cruising through the ocean and I am gone in a blink   
At 3AM writing listening to music and i am on the edge of the brink  

Letters I have sent in the past but there memories are vast
I can’t read those sent notes without them bringing up dark thoughts 
When I saw her sway, my mind was going far away
I said don’t go and my soul was like please stay 

The memories still latches on my mind and crawls under my skin 
On my knees prying to god like I am in an empty bin 
Trying to survive with my burning ashes and I spin   
Arriving to the coast but I don’t know where to begin 

I am having a hard time coming up with simple liens 
I don’t know what to do I am just not that fine 
I am not good, I am not glad, and I am not even that mad 
But you are reading my thoughts and I am awfully sad      

I have been staring at the night sky talking to god  
Looking at Jupiter and mars shine so bright and thinking where you are  
Feeling lonely while lots are phonies that left me  
Feeling depressed with problems that still controls me 

Feeling the regrets and my soul is a miss 
Just like my room in the middle of the thick mist
Feeling like this ever since those bad days
I said I was going through a phase but people just told me to embraces

But that was never the case in this maze 
Ever since I fell in love again & it was a disgrace 
Ever since love was with more than a face 
And I couldn't handle it and it exploded in my membrane 

Living in my reflections and going through different stages 
It's like I'm weak & tired from the different rages  
My past is what I try to erase such a disgrace 
Just living in a discreet manner falling to shame

Trying my best to fathom my shadows
Trying not to kill myself with a bunch of arrows
All I'm trying to do now is to dive
And my angels are watching from high above in the sky 

They know my mind and my soul 
And what I am trying to do but I am stuck in a hole 
With no hope and the love I want was gone 
Out of the window and I was once again very wrong

My body they hurt with stones and chains 
People just hit me and anger me for may days 
And I developed different emotional gains 
And sometimes I'm stuck inside my rage

Don't know where to go I feel endanger
Stuck in this form looking for some flavors  
Never speaking cause it's always try later 
Writing and writing till goodnight and I will see you later 

Never knew what to do but in bed I lay like I'm dead 
Dealing with deep issues and my alarm goes red 
Confused with what they said and the tears I have shed 
Standing in the void looking to get some rest   

At the end of the night I’m stressing and guessing 
With questions and impressions and why did they leave me  
With my soul and intentions and why did they act like they were in to me 
With my quest, my life decisions, and its test 

They call me to say, Hey Hazem I thought you would never answer 
Yeah I am loosing myself the weight is pulling me like an anchor
And I get attached and people leave me stranded  
Standing under the rain without understanding

I don’t know 
I am just feeling like a fool 
I am sorry if I seem so rude
And I am sorry if my sadness got to you too 

But this is how I feel   
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