BLOG5- Gone

Gone.

Soon I will go with the wind and disappear in to the sunset    

Spilling my emotions in the bin shedding tears with my coldest sweat    

Soon my soul will be on the moon with no more fear of a threat  

When I will die please don't cry everything will be clear and I will rest  

When you listen to my tune make sure it’s in the afternoon 

Soon the portal will open for my tears that have fallen 

Throw my ashes in to the sun from the bullets in the gun

All I am asking for is peace until it’s all said and done 

Soon I will travel through the stars and I will wonder who you are  

And my spirit will go very far without leaving any bleeding scar

Like you did when you decided to hurt me and crash into me  

You left me laying on the floor unworthy feeling sorry for me   

You left me dying in the crash and got my head smashed

I was breathless and I was looking for the exit with a flash   

It was dark; I saw the blast then woke up with an arm cast 

I loved you I really did but you left me in the ditch like the trash  

Sometimes I want to kill myself but then I remember I am better 

I find myself looking for some help but my situation is a blunder 

So I write to release the pain that is buried inside deep under 

And then they act like I have a really short tense temper 

I find it hard to adjust I feel like an outcast all the time 

Just take a look at my awful past then you will know why 

It's like someone wanted it to last for a very long time   

It felt like I am stuck in a cell with no love to call mine 

My feelings are caught up in the mist so I could exist

But they call me dramatic and I can’t be like this 

Words of hate they would tell me but I would resist

And I got fed up and I said this is it but with no assist 

I couldn't feel the love and I wasn't a saint from the heavens   

I am only human but everything I have is a blissing 

I accepted what was happening and took it as a lesson 

But it is tragic and I am on the edge everyday reminiscing  

I am blind, dead, brain frozen, screaming from my lungs 

I loved you so much but you played with me for fun 

You never cared about my heart and my love was true from the start  

Life happened but I am very concerned and my stress is of the chart 

Sometimes I sit down and write my thoughts on paper 

But I can’t turn my frown up side down; I can taste its flavor

When I write the words on my mind I feel down but safer 

And sometimes I feel like pressing the dark red detonator

I am love sick, sick of love with thousand salty tears  

My emotions are messed-up and full of awful fears 

I am tired of feeling broken and hopeless  

They stab me and leave me open with the pain soaked in  

I starve for connection not attention and I choke

And I look for love in another dimensions but I am broke 

I swear I have good intentions with the words I just spoke  

Just to be fair I lust for some affection with a big smoke 

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