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Gone.


Soon I will go with the wind and disappear in to the sunset    
Spilling my emotions in the bin shedding tears with my coldest sweat    
Soon my soul will be on the moon with no more fear of a threat  
When I will die please don't cry everything will be clear and I will rest  

When you listen to my tune make sure it’s in the afternoon 
Soon the portal will open for my tears that have fallen 
Throw my ashes in to the sun from the bullets in the gun
All I am asking for is peace until it’s all said and done 

Soon I will travel through the stars and I will wonder who you are  
And my spirit will go very far without leaving any bleeding scar
Like you did when you decided to hurt me and crash into me  
You left me laying on the floor unworthy feeling sorry for me   

You left me dying in the crash and got my head smashed
I was breathless and I was looking for the exit with a flash   
It was dark; I saw the blast then woke up with an arm cast 
I loved you I really did but you left me in the ditch like the trash  

Sometimes I want to kill myself but then I remember I am better 
I find myself looking for some help but my situation is a blunder 
So I write to release the pain that is buried inside deep under 
And then they act like I have a really short tense temper 

I find it hard to adjust I feel like an outcast all the time 
Just take a look at my awful past then you will know why 
It's like someone wanted it to last for a very long time   
It felt like I am stuck in a cell with no love to call mine 

My feelings are caught up in the mist so I could exist
But they call me dramatic and I can’t be like this 
Words of hate they would tell me but I would resist
And I got fed up and I said this is it but with no assist 

I couldn't feel the love and I wasn't a saint from the heavens   
I am only human but everything I have is a blissing 
I accepted what was happening and took it as a lesson 
But it is tragic and I am on the edge everyday reminiscing  

I am blind, dead, brain frozen, screaming from my lungs 
I loved you so much but you played with me for fun 
You never cared about my heart and my love was true from the start  
Life happened but I am very concerned and my stress is of the chart 

Sometimes I sit down and write my thoughts on paper 
But I can’t turn my frown up side down; I can taste its flavor
When I write the words on my mind I feel down but safer 
And sometimes I feel like pressing the dark red detonator

I am love sick, sick of love with thousand salty tears  
My emotions are messed-up and full of awful fears 
I am tired of feeling broken and hopeless  
They stab me and leave me open with the pain soaked in  

I starve for connection not attention and I choke
And I look for love in another dimensions but I am broke 
I swear I have good intentions with the words I just spoke  
Just to be fair I lust for some affection with a big smoke 
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